Hungry now

It is funny how this blog have more people viewing than the rest of the blogs. I just saw the page views numbers and this blog has more. Maybe I should advertise the other ones. But my blog are mainly about boring stuff I do. Not so interesting.

If I travel a lot, I would dedicate it to be travel blog. It does sound interesting though. I do want to see the world again and also work at the same time. Yes, may not be able to work in the industry that I want but I get to see the world. Sigh..

Anyway, I recently found out that M has a new paper money designs and I am not sure if they still accept the old ones. I still have the old ones though. I hope I can still use it. This is probably the third time they change it. It will look foreign to me since I see nz paper money more often.

Guilty

I feel guilty for not updating here much. I checked the dashboard regularly though I don't blog much here. I have got 5 followers here. Stalkers.. muahaha..

Actually, I am one myself as I do stalk other people's blog. Once in a while though. I finally found some time to browse around. Things have got a little free with the report out of the way. Apparently I only need a day to finish one assignment so that's alright. I have got this other exercise which requires me to look into the microscope and draw the texture of the minerals and then describing the minerals and how they form, in not more than one page per mineral. I did one draft yesterday and I have another 3 more to go. It's not due till 1st of May.

I should probably go do some study for my test coming up this Thursday instead of blogging here.

Whoops

Oh whoops, I haven't updated this blog for so long. I guess having more than one blog does take time to maintain it. Did I spell it right? I hope so. I am currently taking time off from social events and outings to study and revise my school work. A little time to update blog won't hurt, I hope. =)

Anyway, lately I have been watching series while studying. It's bad habit and I tried not to at times. It's just that it was after I finished my lunch that I couldn't stop watching them halfway.

Now, I have a field trip coming. I should think it is my last one as there is no more field trip in the second semester. Yea, I would be glad because I actually don't like my field trips. It's just so tiring from the day walks and we have to do internal assessment which takes up most of the nights. Then, you go to sleep at midnight and get up at 7. Do you think you would have enough sleep? I don't think I would. My normal sleep would be 8-9 hours.

Okay, enough of ramblings and I shall head back to studying. I am so proud of myself that I manage to finish most of the revision and school work that have been piling up for weeks. Hehehe.. Now I go. Ciao.

Blogging

I am quite amazed myself at how much I have written over the years on blogs. I guess some people probably think, what is there to write about so much, it's not nice to write personal life on blog eg what you do during the day, yada yada.. but for me, this is where I can put my thoughts here after doing quite a lot of thinking.

I actually have quite a bit to put down but it might offend some people so..

I think my layout may put off some people reading it because it looks so big and sort like for kids. Hehe.. oops..

Blog inactive

Hehehe.. this blog is a bit dead ler..

Oh.. know what? my .com site has been shut down. Ish.. so much for writing good posts and gone just like that. Well, I am getting a new one soon. Yea.. I am here because of that. No lah.. I won't abondon this blog.. it's like part of me.

Oh yea... u want to see something?


It's the microwave in the kitchen. How dirty, right? I don't think anyone wants to clean it. I don't want to clean it because I don't think I dirty it. I always use a lid to cover my food when I microwaved my food.

I am not saying that I am dirty or showing you how dirty. My main point is when you're staying with other people, you really have to have schedule of who is cleaning this and that. Or I could say my main point is stay with people you know, feel comfortable with and be honest of things. If you don't like anything, just say. That is how you will not have conflicts. And don't always think that you are right and your way is correct. Humans are not perfect.

Aih..

Such a mess

I don't know what to say or feel after another flatmate of mine told me there's a rat in the house. But I finally know why there were mess on the kitchen floor in the morning when I went into the kitchen. Mian.. this is so scary. I guess that's for having messy kitchen and not cleaning up every night. Sigh.. but what to do.. I don't want to clean up other people's mess. Somehow I have a feeling that this other flatmate of mine made the mess in the kitchen. I mean not the mess of the rubbish on the floor but the frying pan and other cutleries left unwashed and the mugs or cups can be left unwashed for a week.

I was hoping to see clean kitchen after I got back from field trip but nope, I did not. Still dirty. Ish.. a few more months. I cleaned up em and my dishes. Sometimes I do forgot to clean up but I did not leave them unwashed for more than 2 days. Sigh..

Now I am wondering on how to clean my muddy boots. It is going to be hard.

Transit-'ing'

Hmm.. why do I find it so hard to remember the url of my .com? I can't login because I forgot the url login. Now in Changi Airport. Walking around looking at stuff. The place is quite big so I am taking my time to go around the place. =)

And my laptop bag is so heavy. Now my shoulders are painful. *slap myself* Don't complain. It's good enough that I have time to walk around the place. I found out that NZD=S$. Meaning I can buy stuff here? Hahaha.. so far, I cannot find Body Shop. I want to buy eyecare serum. I found out that I got fine lines wrinkes. Ah.. does that mean I am old? But I just enter adulthood age though. Ok, maybe I should stop worrying too much. Sigh..

I better go now. The timing is finishing soon and I haven't finish exploring stuff. I wanted to buy something for my friends but I can't find or think of anything that they would like. Oh ya, I really cannot find the Christians T-shirts around. And I did not have a chance to go to Pharmacy in Miri or KL to look for precresption on something for something. Argh.. now I cannot remember the name. Aih..

Rambling on..

I am now in KL, shopping everyday. Now I feel so broke. So today, decided not to go anywhere and finally one of my cousin came over to see me. =) Later on, will be heading off to church. Tomorrow decide to watch movie and walk around in Mid Valley. Another cousin will be heading back to her college to start new sem.

Then, will be heading off to Miri to spend the rest of the holidays before flying back to KL to catch my flight back. I am quite satisfied with the dresses I bought because I know that I cannot find nice dresses that fit me in NZ. =)

Ramblings

When I was younger, I know I always snoop around the cabinets. That was when I found my dad’s ID employee card. I thought it was cool and I know I played going to work with my sisters using my dad’s ID. Now thinking back, I thought that was stupid and lame. But I was just a kid so; I can be forgiven, right? =)

Now just being random, I have seen in movies how spies can get into companies or say big companies with fake ID. Maybe they should tighten the security? Or it is just my stupid thinking. It was just movies, so of course they make it as if the spies are so good that they can fake ID and can just walk into the company buildings.

Anyway, this is not my point of talking about ID, there is this website for ID badge supplies and I thought it would be good for anyone who wants to order ID cards. And plus, it doesn't have to be just for IDs. It can be for other type of cards, for example, membership’s cards, loyalty cards, gifts card, library cards, discounts cards etc. It is just that they print out nicely and make it nice too. =) id card printing systems

All those cards from your wallets and purses probably come from there. Talking about purses, I had a dream this morning that the entire cash and eftpos card in my purse was stolen. I was very upset in my dream and I think I was screaming around as well until my alarm woke me up. I turned it off and was thinking to myself that it was just a dream. Oh, I haven’t check my purse yet but I think it was just a dream. I know I was being paranoid in my dream and yelling to call the bank to stop my eftpos cards. That was some dream though.

Sigh

After a talk with Em, I think I am quite clear about the spirituality. =) Sorry for making such fuss. I was curious.

Sigh.. I just checked email and found out from my mum that my international flight departure back to Brunei has been changed to 9.40am. Before this, it was 12 noon. I don't think I have enough time when I arrive in Auckland so I think I have to change my domestic flight. Sigh.. I dislike getting up so early in the morning but I got no choice right?

Good thing I came back to check my email. Now I got no mood to study. But I have to force myself. I have to study. =(

... making me confused...

The topic of spiritual came up in the conversation when I was talking to my friends. I don't consider myself very spiritual if compared to her and her. They spoke or blog about God more than I do and even the way they talked also shows how spiritual they are. The usage of words also shows that they are very spiritual. I accept the fact that they are different from me. Okay....

But when I talked to my friends more about this, I realise that I probably am worse. My friends listen to Christian songs while I don't. Okay, they don't really talk like her and her. But what I am wondering now is, all these things gives people impression of yourself. It doesn't mean that you are not spiritual, is it?

... making me confused...

Wah...

Wow.. I just looked at how many posts i post in a month. how it has dropped so much. Hehe.. haven't been blogging much. I do take time to blog about stuff I did though. =)

Exams are coming up so I think I will be on hiatus. Maybe not long hiatus but short. Will update once in a while though. =)

Mian.. I am so stressed with assignments and lab work. Assignment marks is not good and I am scared of the finals though I have confidence. Sigh..

Anyway, back to study.. don't stare at the screen.

Woo...

Aih.. I so do not know how to do my stats lab work. Dumb la the code. Not the code fault la, I have to figure out what to insert into the code so I can get it done.
Currently in uni computer lab supposedly doing work. I wanted to blog in my .com website but I cannot remember what is the site for login. So came here to blog instead. I guess no one reads this blog anyway. =) Hahaha.. so i can babble whatever I want.

Oh, I learnt that complaining and arguing is not good and we shouldn't do that often. Mian.. and I am doing it now, complaining on the amount of work. It is one question of my lab work but with part a, b, c and d and I don't even know how to do part a. Well, it is more like I have to find mu and sigma and put into rmnorm(N,mu,sigma) to get the generated sample points. Oh oh, know what, a friend asked me if I know how to plot few graphs in one big A4 size. I said, yea I can do it if there are data. Well, hopefully I can make it work. Hehehe.. how does engineering work relates to stats? Just by plotting graphs? *grins Well, most of my stats course are something to do with computer programming and using the codes to find the best model and to elaborate or analysing those models. Eh, it is not easy to find the best model. You have to decide which variables to drop by looking at the AIC, p-value etc.

Ok la, my coursemates are here so I should be doing my work. Ciao.

Games all the way

I thought I could sit in front of PS2 for a long time playing with the fighting games, racing games or whatever adventure games, etc. But no, I got bored of playing the racing games or the fighting game after 10 minutes. Sometimes I was thinking, what is the point of having a PS2 when I don't play for more than 10 minutes? But sometimes my friends and I borrowed Singstar to sing for occasion of dinner. So, that was worth it. We did use PS2 for ICF games night, singing Singstar. =)

Sprained foot

Sigh.. I haven't been to gym for over 3 weeks already. I did not go during the first week because I thought I exercise enough from my field trip. Second week was because I had assignments due. This week is because I just sprained my foot. How lucky. =(

Maybe I should try dieting instead. Hmm.. what a good idea. Don't worry, I am not going to starve myself. I am still going to eat but healthier. There's this website on fast weight loss. Looks interesting because it talks about new lifestyle diet. Said that fast weight loss is achieved, faster than weight watchers, jenny craig, slim fast, atkins, medifast and optifast.

The website even has liquid diet, as in they thought what is best (no fat gain) for you. You can even shop from the website. This is cool. Hmm.. if you don't want to shop, you can always browse the shopping list and try to make for yourself. I am sure that the items listed are fat free. What a good idea. I am going to try that myself. Oh but do join the program if you are interested. =)

Getting annoyed

Sharing house or say living room, dining room and the kitchen really is troublesome. The counter place is so messy and left with crumbs around, not cleaned. The sink is left very dirty. I had to clean the sink and put all the plates, pots/pans and the cutleries back into the drawers every morning. I am starting to get annoyed by this.

Another one is a flatmate of mine broke one of my transparent cup. I was shouting to my flatmate who was in the living room if she knew where the other transparent cup of mine has gone. Then, the flatmate confessed that he broke it. Well, at least I know where it is now. I am still annoyed though. Of all the cups around, he went on and use mine. Sigh.. I guess that is for sharing a house with other people. I can't wait to move out and move into my own place with my flatmate.

I feel like yelling it out

I am not sure how to cheer myself. I felt really down when I came back from Stats class yesterday. This reminds me of what Lily, a friend from church camp talked about. She mentioned in her talk

• she is not smart
• have always struggle with her studies
• pushed herself to work hard and to study Master because she was worried that she could not get a job with her degree in Biochemistry
• Biochemistry studies are general so it is harder to get a job anywhere (I can only remember vaguely what she said because it was more than a week ago)

I thought about myself as well. In my first year, I was really ambitious. I decided to study engineering in the hope that I can graduate as an engineer and prove that I am also smart like my sisters and cousins. Not even halfway through the course, I was already thinking, 'can I really pass all these courses? I am really struggling.' I was also constantly complaining to my parents and they finally confronted me and asked me to change, they don't want me to stress too much.

I was alright with the courses I chose for the following year. When the following year came, I was also struggling hard with studying Maths papers. I know there aren't easy courses in any subject so I tried harder. I didn't want to give up just yet considering what I did the year before. That year, I took Geology papers to see how I did and thought Geology is pretty good subject to study in. Yea, I found it ok so I continued the year after that. I also continued with Statistics as I enjoy it. I always have help from my coursemates/friends. I didn't continue studying Maths because it was too hard for me to handle. I don't want to change my mind every year because I don't think I can afford to, it's wasting money as well. I feel guilty for doing that in the past 2 years. I am already in my third year for Statistics and I really think I should finish it off. (I think I am just releasing stress in this way so don't mind that sentence.)

Anyway, back to feeling down about yesterday Stats class. Lecturer decided to give each individuals chances to answer questions and the most correct will get 5 marks at the end of the course. I know I won't be able to get it. But what I am disappointed was that I got the easy question wrong. How stupid, I was just thinking, can I really complete the course with stupid answers like that? Sigh.. meaning that I would have to work extra hard and be prepared to give CORRECT answers when lecturer ask questions.

Relating back to what Lily talked about herself. I realized that I have similar things to what she said,

• I am not smart
• I always have struggles with studies till now
  
• I pushed myself to do double major in Geology and Statistics because it would benefit me in future careers
  

Honestly, I am still really disappointed with my grades from last year. Why can't I do better? Why does everyone else do better than me? Sometimes, I feel like giving up studying. There's one question I keep asking myself since I started uni. Why can't I study engineering like the rest of my friends? I know not everyone can study engineering but the question kept on lingering in my mind till now.

It is really tiring, I tell you

I put up photos of the views that I took during my field trip. The place is really nice and peaceful. People who like to have peaceful time should really come here. I mean, I can hear birds singing in the morning and also the trees howling at night. Absolutely no sound or noise that you hear in the city. Hehe..

Taken when I was walking uphill. Do you know how hard it is for me to walk uphill? I guess people won't know unless they are me. All the students walked as if they were walking on a flat road. I was one of the few people who shows that she or he is unfit and we were definitely walking up the hill. Sigh.. I am so unfit. Maybe I should go to gym more often. After the five day hiking, I think I may have lost few kgs. Hmm...

Admiring

Last time, I blogged about how I really admire people studying and handling their extra curricular activities. Now I am here to say I really really admire people who study, extra curricular activities and going to gym. Hmm.. they must know how to divide their timing. I think I should sleep less and study during that time. But some people don’t study a lot and they still manage to get good grades. I am so jealous. This also means that I am not smart enough. Sigh, I know some people are smarter than others but I think it is so unfair. Sigh, what to do. I want to be smart, go gym and handle extra curricular activities too. I just need to be smart to divide my time.

So much...

Lately, I have been busy but now I think I just blogged a bit about what has happened during the last few days. I think it was about two weeks ago, I checked out the calling cards rates. It is getting cheaper but I don’t know if it is definitely going cheap or not as things here has increase a lot in price. I love eating Cadbury ice cream and it used to cost around nzd6. Now it is about NZD7.15. Just see at the price increases.

Oh ya, I bought a textbook from online shop, thenile.co.nz, it is not that bad. Oh, I didn’t use credit card to buy if you must know. One of the payment methods was using paypal. It made my life easier. I thought about buying the textbook for two days. I guess it would be easier for me to refer or just read the notes when I am out in the field. How did I know this online bookshop? Well, I saw from smilecity. Seriously, if you are NZ resident, you should sign up for smilecity. It has rewards points which never expire and you can cash out the money. Of course you would need to verify yourself otherwise they won’t give you the money easily.